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  “What?! It’s not like I haven’t seen it before. Plus, you’ll probably be showing more skin on the beach tomorrow.”

  “It’s been awhile since you’ve seen anything of mine. Turn around.”

  He holds his hand up in surrender as he turns, facing the opposite direction. Untying my robe, I toss it on the bed and pull the pink silk sleeveless top over my head. Turning to the mirror so see how I look, my eyes connect with Liam’s and I give him a smile realizing he was watching me through the mirror. Liam turns arounds and closes the distance between us bringing his hand up and running his finger under the spaghetti strap on my shoulder. “You look beautiful.”

  “Thank you.” I hook two fingers into each of his front pockets, keeping him close to me for a few seconds longer. “Liam…”

  He’s standing so close to me I can feel his breath on my lips. All we’d have to do is lean in a little and are lips would be touching. Kissing. “Yeah?”

  “I want you sleeping next to me tonight.”

  “I know.”

  “But only tonight.”

  “We’ll see.”

  I shake my head holding back the smile that wants to spread across my face. “We should go out and join everyone.”

  “Yeah you’re probably right.” I remove my fingers from his pockets and he removes his hands from me. A chill runs down my arm missing the warmth of him. I step around him and open my bedroom door to walk out to the living room with Liam behind me.

  Caleb is the only one in the living room but Mack’s door is still closed. Would Drew be in there with her? If so, he’s probably driving her crazy. Caleb lets out a sigh and stands up from the couch. “Finally. I feel like I’ve been sitting by myself for hours.” He grabs my hand and twirls me. “Damn girl. You look hot. I hope Mack doesn’t look this good because I’m not going to be able to check out other girls with you two in front of me.”

  Drew and Mack choose to walk out of her room at that moment. Mack does a twirl in her black sequin crop top and short black high waisted flared skirt. I’m kind of surprised that she didn’t accidentally show us everything under her skirt but Mack has always been great in choosing sexy but classy clothes. Caleb lets out a whistle and that seems to make Mack happy based on her smile. “Thanks Caleb. At least someone appreciates my outfit.”

  She gives a look to Drew and I wonder what he said about her outfit. He better watch himself or he’s going to really piss her off. I hope her new boyfriend is going to meet us tonight so that way she won’t focus on Drew. I walk over to her and pull her into a hug. With my mouth next to her ear I whisper, “Is your skirt short enough?”

  “Are your pants tight enough?” We both chuckle and loop are arms in each other’s as we head to the kitchen to get something to drink.

  “Who’s this outfit for? I’m I finally going to meet your mystery guy?”

  “No. I’m still not ready for you to meet him yet. And the outfit is for me. Who’s your outfit for?” I look over my shoulder to Liam and smile when I see him looking at me. Mack hands me a beer with a knowing smile. “I see.”

  Chapter Eighteen

  Liam

  She looks stunning. And apparently every guy here thinks so too. As she walks around with Mack and her friends, their eyes follow and it takes everything in me not to pull her to me and claim her as mine. The only thing keeping me from doing that is she doesn’t notice and every few minutes she looks at me and smiles.

  Something has changed between us these last few weeks and it’s something I’ve waited for since she came back into my life. Having her in my arms has always brought peace to me but lately it’s also brought me warmth. Every time I have her in my arms, she holds onto me tighter and longer. I want her to be mine again but I want her to want it too. I can feel her walls breaking but she still hasn’t fully let herself open up to me.

  Mack and Liz walk back over to us with empty glasses and based on the flushness of Liz’s cheeks, I’d say a little buzzed too. Mack walks over to Drew and sits next to him and Liz comes up behind me placing her hands on my shoulders. I look up at her and she has the biggest smile on her face. “Mack and I want to dance. Let’s go somewhere else.”

  Mack is already pulling Drew up with her and Caleb has his arm around Sarah, one of their friends, already heading to the parking lot. Liz leans down next to my ear while rubbing her hands down my chest. “Are you coming?”

  “Wouldn’t miss it.” I stand up and she runs her hand down my arm all the way to my hand, interlocking our fingers. Everyone is waiting in the Uber by the time Liz and I get to the parking lot. We quickly get into the suburban and close the door behind us. The ride is short to Isaac Hunters but Liz never let’s go of my hand. A part of me wants to pull her closer so I can feel her body up against mine. But before I even get a chance to do it, we arrive to the bar and Liz opens the door pulling me out.

  Looking behind me, I see Mack pulling Drew out and Sarah pulling Caleb. Wow, they really want to dance. Liz lets go of my hand, making me turn back to her. But instead of finding her looking at me, I see her walking to the dance floor already swaying her hips. Mack and Sarah join her on the dance floor and I can feel Caleb and Drew standing on either side of me. “They’re feeling good tonight.”

  Caleb grabs my shoulder. “Yes, they are. And who says we can’t join them.” He walks over to the girls and wraps his arms around Sarah and starts dancing with her. I nudge Drew’s elbow and give him a look that says ‘should we?’ Drew looks back to Mack and I can tell he wants to. I’ve known Drew has had a thing for Mack since the night they slept together, if not before, but for whatever reason he made her think he just wanted her for that one night. Seeing Mack dance in her short skirt and crop top, I’m sure he’s wishing he could show everyone she’s his like I want to do with Liz.

  We stand there watching the girls for a while when Mack comes over for Drew and pulls him to the dance floor. Something passes in between them as she wraps his arms around her waist and she pulls him closer by wrapping her arms around his neck. I smile at them and look to Liz who is looking at me dancing to the music. She waves me over with a sexy smile on her face and there’s no way I could resist her. Not that I wanted to.

  When I walk up to her, she runs her hands up my chest and around my neck. I place my forehead against hers while running my hands down her sides to her hips. We start swaying to the music and before I know it, I’m lost in the music and the way Liz moves her body against me. For me it’s just us two here, dancing to our own song. After a while we slow our movements and she lays her head on my shoulder, melting into me.

  I’m not sure how long we’ve been dancing when she looks up at me with tired eyes. “I’m ready to go home.”

  “Okay. I’ll order us an Uber.” I quickly order us a car as she hugs Mack and Sarah goodbye. I give a head nod to Caleb and Drew before Liz and I go to meet the car outside. “Is everyone else staying for a while?”

  “Yeah. Mack’s not ready to go yet so Drew’s going to stay with her and Sarah and Caleb are going home together in a little bit.”

  I give her a smirk at the fact Caleb and Sarah are going home together. She chuckles quietly as she gets into the car and I slide in next to her. I grab her hand and she moves over to me and rests her head on my shoulder. “I had fun tonight. I hope you did.”

  “I did. It was one of my best nights in a while.”

  “Good. I wanted you to have a good night. I wanted you to be happy.”

  “You make me happy.”

  “You make me happy too.” I pull her closer to me and she’s quiet for the rest of the ride. So quiet that I think she’s fallen asleep, but when we pull up to her apartment, she sits up thanking the driver before getting out of the car. I thank the driver too as I get out and follow her up the stairs and into her apartment.

  She’s in her bathroom with the door cracked when I lay down on top of the bed ready to sleep. I look to the bathroom and see Liz with a towel around her as she takes off her ma
keup. Our eyes meet in the mirror and a smile forms on her face. “I’m going to shower really quick to get the smell of alcohol off me.”

  “That sounds like a good idea. I’ll take one after you.”

  The door slowly shuts and a second later I hear the shower turn on. I almost fall asleep to the sound of the water running but before my eyes completely close the water turns off and Liz walks out of the bathroom in her towel. “Okay you can go in.”

  “Thanks.” I stand up from the bed, grabbing my stuff and head to the bathroom. After I shower, I pull on my clean boxers and walk back into the room. Liz is in her bed with her wet hair splayed out across her pillow, facing me. “Are you still okay with me sleeping with you?”

  I watch her eyes look me up and down and I wonder if I should put on a shirt, but she stops that thought by patting her bed next to her. “Come on. It’s time to go to sleep.”

  Crawling into bed, I slide over to her so there are only inches between us. She grabs my arm, turns over, pulling my arm around her, and snuggles into me so my chest is to her back. I tangle my legs with hers and we both fall into a quick sleep with our bodies warming each other.

  Chapter Nineteen

  Liz

  April 2012

  It’s Spring Break! And this year it’s happening around Drew and I’s birthdays. My parent’s gift to us is a long weekend without them in our fully stocked beach house and we get to invite whoever we want. Of course, we wanted to keep it small so it’s just Mack, Liam, Drew and I going.

  We all leave after school on Friday for our four night trip and when we arrive to the house, we just order pizza and hangout. Mack pulls me to her room around eleven so she we can hangout just the two of us, painting our nails and talking about boys. I have a secret that I’m dying to tell her and I know she’s going to be just as excited as I am.

  Not being able to hold it in anymore I blurt out, “I’ve been thinking about having sex with Liam.” It’s not like Liam and I haven’t been fooling around because we have, but as far as we have gone is oral. We’ve been waiting to have sex because I’m still a virgin and I wasn’t ready. Liam has been very sweet and understanding about it. I’m pretty sure if I said I wanted to wait until I was married, he’d just say okay and give me a kiss letting me know he loves me.

  Mack attacks me squealing, “Oh my god!” We both fall back on her bed. “This is so exciting. I wish I would have waited for someone special like you did for Liam.” Mack lost her virginity this past summer while at softball camp with one of the counselors. He was a total dick afterwards and didn’t call her after the camp ended.

  “I wish you had a better experience but if you had waited you wouldn’t be able to give me advice. I’m nervous but excited. Is it going to hurt? What if I’m bad at it? What if he doesn’t want to?”

  “Liz. Liam loves you so much. Of course he is going to want to and there is no way you will be bad at it. And it will hurt but Liam will take it slow because he doesn’t want to hurt you. But eventually the pain will turn into pleasure. Just remember to relax and talk to him. Are you going to do it this weekend?”

  I blush and nod. “I think so. I just want it to be special. I don’t want it planned. I don’t need roses all over the bed or candles lighting the room. I just want him and the moment to be right.”

  “It’ll be special no matter when it happens. I’m so happy for you. You’re in love and probably with the man you’ll spend the rest of your life.”

  I give her a hug. “Thank you. I’m going to go to bed. I’ll see you in the morning.” I give her one more hug before heading to my room.

  As I’m getting ready for bed, I can’t stop thinking about how much I love Liam. Of the few people that know about us, some have said that there’s no way we can feel real love when we’re still teenagers, but they’re wrong. Liam and I know every good and bad quality about each other. We have seen each other at our worst and we’ve never let that scare us. He knows all my secrets and I know his. I want to spend every minute possible with him and I know he feels the same. We were friends first which makes our love stronger.

  I have loved Liam in some way since he sent me that first text on the day we met and that love has morphed over these last two years into something I can’t imagine living without. I know Liam is my future and even though some people think we’re stupid and young, I don’t care. We’ll show them how wrong they are.

  As I’m crawling into bed, my door opens and Liam smiles at me in just his boxers. “Hey.”

  He closes the door and walks towards me. “Hey.”

  I lift the covers up inviting him into the bed and he crawls in happily. “You couldn’t sleep in your own bed?”

  “Why would I when I could sleep with you.”

  “Aww. So cute.”

  He starts tickling me. “Are you making fun of me?”

  I chuckle. “Maybe. What are you going to do about it?”

  His smile grows wide right before he kisses me. Liam wraps his arms around me, holding me to him as I entangle my fingers in his hair and lean back so I’m laying underneath him. Our kiss deepens as I arch into him and he runs his hand up my thighs, pushing my long night shirt up exposing my panties. He quickly pulls off my panties and then settles in between my legs.

  “Liam.” He smiles at me and kisses me. “I want to have sex. I love you and I’m ready.”

  “I love you too. But are you sure? I’m fine with waiting. This isn’t me trying to pressure you. I was just having fun.”

  I place my hand on his cheek and kiss him. “I know. This is something I’ve been thinking about and I really want this. I want you.”

  “I want you too.”

  I kiss him again, pulling him closer to me. Our movements are slow as we each run our hands over each other’s bodies. I run my hands down his chest over his abs and into his boxers pushing them down as he pushes my shirt up exposing my breasts and pulling it over my head. Liam finishes removing his boxers and sits back looking at me, taking in my naked body. “You’re beautiful, Liz.” He leans forward kissing my stomach, each breast, and my neck. “I’m yours, my sun.”

  I’m breathless and flushed with Liam over top of me and my body reacts to him. I arch closer to him, my fingers run down his back, and my legs open wider for him. “I’m yours, always.”

  He leans down as I lean up and our lips meet in a kiss. Our kiss is soft and sweet. Liam lowers himself closer to me and I can feel him at my entrance, waiting. I know he’s just making sure this is what I want too. I wrap my legs around him, pulling him closer. He breaks our kiss, kissing down my neck as he slowly pushes into me inch by inch. The pressure of him filling and stretching me is something I’ve never felt before, but it doesn’t hurt. He runs his hand down my stomach to my clit and he starts rubbing circles over it. A burst of pleasure shoots through me right as he pushes the last inch in and the pain comes.

  Liam stops moving except for his thumb on my clit as my whole body tenses and tears come to my eyes. “Liz? Talk to me.” He gives me a kiss as I open my eyes and see the worry on his face.

  “I’m okay.” The pain is slowly subsiding as I adjust to him. “It just hurt more than I expected.” My body slowly starts to relax as I take deep breaths.

  He kisses me again and I rock my hips letting him know I’m ready for him to move. He starts pulling out slowly and I try not to concentrate on the pain but on the feeling of Liam’s hands on me. Our movements are slow for a while as the pain subsides and pleasure slowly starts to build. Eventually the pain is outweighed by pleasure and I start rocking my hips into Liam’s thrusts.

  Liam kisses down my neck as a moan escapes my mouth and his thrusts become faster. My pleasure builds with the faster pace and I start clawing at his back, wanting him closer. I buck against him when he starts circling my clit again and within seconds, I’m coming around him. My body spazzes underneath Liam’s as he thrusts a few more times before coming as well. We’re both breathless as our bodies relax and our orgasms
subside.

  Liam is still over top of me laying on me as I run my fingers through his hair. “That was amazing. I love you.”

  He gives me a quick kiss before moving to lay on his back next to me and pulling me into his side. “I love you, too. I can’t wait to do that again.” I chuckle and curl in tighter to him as he runs his fingers up and down my back. “Are you hurting?”

  I look up at him and smile. “A little, but I welcome it. I’m happy that we did it and I wouldn’t change anything.” I kiss his chest and lay my head on his shoulder.

  He kisses the top of my head as he continues to rub up and down my back. My eyes slowly drift close as I hear him say, “Me either, my sun.”

  Chapter Twenty

  Liz

  Present

  This house is amazing. Seeing the grey and white two story house brings an instant smile to my face. I’ve only ever had great memories here. Looking up to the window that I know is mine, I try to think about the last time I was here and I can’t remember it. It’s been at least a year. Bryan never wanted to come here. He would complain about having to spend so much time with my family or make me feel bad about myself by making accusations that I just want to prance around in my bikini to get other guys attention.

  I shake Bryan from my head because he will not ruin this week. I silently make a vow to myself to come back here more often. Drew comes up beside me and wraps his arm around my shoulders. “Whatcha thinking about?”

  “I was trying to figure out when the last time I was here.”

  He’s quiet for a second and when I look up at him, I can tell he’s trying to figure it out too. “I don’t know. Maybe two summers ago for our family trip.”